this is maudlin.........

If you are a SATC fan then you will know the episode when Carries Manolo's get stolen and she has a rant about all the investment (monetary and emotional) she has put into other people's lives and celebrations and she wants payback.Thats a bit how I feel atm.Its not about the money, its the time and effort I put into other peoples kids,wedding,engagements and the like and I do wonder if I would ever get the same back if I had the same things to celebrate? And then I think why haven't I got those things to celebrate in my life? On Saturday I went to my ex-colleagues wedding, he is the man I unexpectedly fell for whilst we were working together (this is not a repeat of m@w!!) and we had a 'moment' where we both shocked each other by realising we liked each other,anyway nothing else happened after that because he was always going to get married and I knew I would fall for him if we didn't stay strictly friends, and it would be wrong but damn it he is so lovely! I am gutted he is married.
Cant say anymore, I stopped myself posting this yesterday as I was a bit upset, not that I have any right but still.


On the plus side I have now lost a stone in weight since I started dieting,if I pull my finger out I could lose more.

memories

Something another blogger ,Vintage Vixen, posted made me remember how much I loved clothes when I was little.I can still remember specific items I had,particulary from when I was about 6 or 7.

• a navy velvet t-shirt with red stars,my M+D have a photo of me wearing this somewhere which I can remember being taken.
• a Jimmy Osmond t-shirt-showing my age big time now!!
• a navy Charlies Angels jumpsuit-I loved this to death!
• a crochet squares tank top.stylish or what?
• a pink nylon faux-patchwork dress,very 70's stylee.I used to wear the tank top over this!
• pink,blue and yellow patchwork clog style shoes.
•  a red coat with massive faux fur collar.
• bubblegum pink crimplene flares!

I had a real thing about shoes,when I would get a new pair-usually before starting back at school after the summer holidays I would sleep with them on my pillow.I had to have them in sight when I went to sleep and even when I was in my teens I used to always leave my new shoes in sight near the bed before sleeping.*weird*. I once borrowed a friends clogs,aged about 6 and didnt want to give them back because I loved them so much and desperately wanted a pair myself.
Is it any wonder I love clothes so much??

today

I bought these today,its the first time for ages I've been into central London and had a look around,it wasn't crazy busy so it was bearable.I went into Banana Republic for the first time and bought this top-it looks really mumsy in the photo but on it looks slightly pretty,slightly edgy ands covers my fat bits-I am feeling bloated today even though I am still doing my diet.

Banana Republic £55

these Topshop shoes,I tried them on ages ago and I don't know why I didn't buy them then as I really like them,again they are that mix of pretty and edgy that I love.

Topshop £22

I also got this corsage from H&M,I had loads of these years ago but this one caught my eye as it has a brooch pin and a hairclip on the back so can be used for clothes or hair.

H&M £3.99

This sweater I got last week,the skull is more subtle irl.

Boohoo £18

going shopping in Central London gave me back my fashion mojo somewhat,I usually can't bear the crowds but it wasn't too busy on a Monday,and it was nice to see how other women were dressing and get some inspiration.In Cos I saw 2 women who must have been in their late 40's or early 50's who looked AMAZING.One of them had very blonde hair,tattoos up her arms and was wearing a longline striped top with beige leggings with buttons on the ankles and worn pulled down over her heels and red shoes worn over them,she looked so good,a really good mix of feminine and edgy (I keep saying edgy today!),her friend was more subtley dressed but also looked amazing with a draped cardigan,cage shoes and a gorgeous slouchy bag with chain detail.They both had managed to dress for their age but also with an edge that made me think they must have been in the music industry or something!

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new things

I am so desperate to move right now,all in all its been a year since I decided to move and nearly as long since I first put the flat on the market.I have finally stored as many of the boxes as I could in my friends garage and have re 'house doctored' my place again for viewers.I have been buying things for the new place,wherever and whenever that may be as I want a new start with some new things rather that the same old same old I've had for ages.This is some of my haul;

vintage butterfly mirror

vintage bread bin

filing cabinet

I don't need another mirror but i just loved this one and its an unusual size too,approx 27inches across,the bread bin was a bargain at £4.50 and I've always wanted one-I liked the text on this,not too French.The filing cabinet was a practical buy for £8.

James Laver book 1943.

I have bought quite a few bits of clothing that I'll post seperately.I got this book today at a CBS for 50p,its a James Laver fashion plate book from 1943.It is in better condition slightly than it looks in the photo.