I reckon that this is what I will look like when I'm old!

with my love of leopard print and all!


**photo 'borrowed' from a fabulous fashion blog called 'The Sartorialist'**

this weeks purchases.

my new hat.........



I am hoping it looks like this on me,




and this tunic,

Mr X

what is wrong with me?I am regressing to a 15 year old I think,had another naughty snog on Monday with someone I probably shouldnt have (not sure if you are reading this Mr X,seeing as you have tracked me on MySpace!)but hey,it was very nice.Very nice indeed,and its nice to know I can still pull a toy boy.So when can we do that again,I can't wait 'till September?

gratuitous cuteness

is it very wrong.......

that I fancy Lee Sharpe?I am watching 'Dancing on Ice',and even though he is a cheating shit,I still fancy him.Alot.

afternoon tea

I went for afternoon tea on Friday with my friend and her little girl,service was a bit crap to start with,but the hotel was lovely and the other customers very friendly-a few years a go we would have gone out and got slaughtered,but these days,its dainty sandwiches and champagne!!I wore my Miss Selfirdge hexagon dress (dont know how to post a pic offf a flash website though) and knee length boots.I am paying for drivng up there now though,my knee is hurting!!

Anna Nicole Smith

is dead at 39,drugs probably-her son died earlier this year as she had just given birth to her daughter,I wonder how long it will be before the film of her life is made?

LOOK

I bought this new magazine LOOK today,'cos its supposed to be a new fashion magazine,what a load of tat it is,its just a same old same old celeb and a bit of fashion mag,just like all the other weekly mags are,so don't bother if you were going to.At least it was on offer for 80p.

weekly update.....

sorry I've not updated the blogette for a week or so (probably no-one's noticed),I've been in a bit of a dark place in my head-a mixture of being pissed off with people at work and other places,not sleeping properly,random thoughts spinning round in my head and my knee and its lack of getting-betterness ;plus I havent been shopping for ages cos I can't drive either atm.
I feel better though this week which is a relief-I was worried that I was slipping into a depression,which is not a good place to be.Speaking of knees,I went to my physio bloke again today,and I am sure that he is interested-I think he's been flirting subtly with me for the last few treatments,and today is my last session for awhile as work are paying for it-he gave me his card and said 'my mobiles on there' in regard to a treatment,and although that isnt necessarily anything,it was the way he did it and asked me to call him if I needed him to do something in regard to my treatment,then as I was leaving he said 'stay in touch,let me know how you get on,I'd be interested to know'-now,was he very subtly asking me to call him as he can't due to the 'doctor/patient' thing,or am I watching too much telly???




Oh,and I officially am out of my probation this week-no more 'bloody probies' jibes-wow,where did the last 2 years go?

not so much thoughts running through my head as

thoughts going round and round and banging off the sides of my head,I can't sleep properly at the moment,I am tired so I go to bed,read awhile then when my eyes are drooping,I attempt to sleep-but I can't!I keep thinking about allsorts of random things,ex-boyfriends,past relationships,workstuff,just anything really but it keeps going round and round and I cant shut it out to sleep,its like my life is flashing before my eyes (and we all know what that means!!).I do eventually drop off,but very late so that I am not getting enough sleep before I have to get up for work.I think it may be boredom.

songs I really shouldn't drive to...........

cos they make me drive way too fast,which I love doing late at night.Naughty.


*The Killers ~ Mr Brightside (reminds me of someone!),Somebody told me - the Killers have a lot to answer for.
*Nickleback ~ This is how you remind me
*Kaiser Chiefs ~ I predict a riot
*Skunk Anansie ~ Weak
*The Buzzcocks ~ Ever fallen in love
*Adam and the Ants ~ Dog eat dog
*The Calling ~ if I could (or whatever its called!)

are they real?

that is Coco,Ice T's wife and porn star-what I want to know is;are her bum cheeks real or are they implants?They must be implants right?

I am learning cockney

seeing as I have lived in london for many years now and I still have a bit of an accent,I am being taught how to 'talk proper' by a cockney,here is a list I have actually managed to drop into converstation so far;


biscuits-knees-I'm saying this alot recently as I have a knackered one.
gregory-neck
syrup-wig
rosy-tea-seeing as I have to make it alot!

Toosh,baby......

I am so pleased for you and Mr T,little Tooshling is here at last!!!Can't wait to see her!

weekly round-up

CBB-I hate you all except for Shilpa,Jermaine and H.Jo,Jade,Jack and Danielle-I want to drown the lot of you retards!

My knee has not got better at all and now I am scared it isnt going to be right for a long time,after I had been to physio yesterday,I went into the ladies and burst into tears cos I was so worried that it hadn't got better.Shit-I had just assumed it would sort itself out in time.I met someone from work for a drink after and it was just what I needed actually-bitching and beer!!!Well,not actually beer as I don't like it,but you get my drift.

I just heard someone say "its all good" on CBB,and it made me realise how much I hate that phrase,they always say it on reality shows when they have to do something not fluffy etc,and its so fake!

parents

Mine came to visit yesterday as I cant drive very far atm,I knew it was going to go the way of all visits as they insist on arriving at lunchtime,which is late in my book,and bringing their own food with them,like we dont have food in London!!!They are so set in their ways,I cant even cook for them as they wont eat it or even entertain going to a restaurant-a cheap cafe or rough pub yes,but not a place where you can enjoy a nice meal.Neither will they go on a day out anywhere or even to visit the rather famous place I used to work at for example.I think we lasted about an hour before I shouted at my Mom,who was shouting 'stop!stop!you're nearly hitting that van!!!' as I was reversing up a very steep hill to get the car into the only non-residential parking space as we waited for my Dad to collect something from a shop.All this from a woman who can't drive herself-she bloody infuriates me,I'd asked her did she want to pop into the little antiques market that has opened recently while we waited 'if you like' she replies-she's so bloody difficult and ungrateful,all I'm attempting to do is make the visit a bit interesting for her,as I know she likes antiquey things!
I really can't handle seeing them,her mainly,we have never had a good relationship,mainly because she was such a bitch to me as I was growing up;no woman to woman chats,no Motherly advice,no hugs or kisses,no chats about men/periods/dilemmas etc,ignoring me for weeks on end after goading me into arguments,whilst being completely normal to my brothers.I am not sure I love her at all,she is the reason I always feared having children for years,particulary a daughter incase I was horrible to her,like she was to me.


Sorry this is a crap serious post,but she makes me feel crap about myself.

ergh,gross

that lttle nerd Jack-apart from his looks,what does Jade see in him?He shoots his load all over her without giving her any pleasure,then turns over to sleep leaving her in the wet!!!He is also a cowardly little shit in the way he picks on Shilpa,he's got a lot of growing up to do.

They are turning out to be a not very nice bunch this year (again).

god,why do people say the most random throwaway cruel remarks??

yesterday I went bowling with my colleagues,I wore my new Primarni dress (see below) with black opaques and black knee length vintage boots,I thought I looked good-I played it down by not wearing my vintage owl necklace as its huge and I couldnt bear the jibes I knew I'd get if I did,it wasn't the most practical thing to wear for bowling but I wasnt participating because of my knee anyway,then one of my (fat and styleless)colleagues out of the blue says 'why are you wearing a maternity dress?Is there something you want to tell us?' I was fucking gutted,I couldnt even look at him and had to hold back the tears(!)I am not skinny by any means but I didnt look fat in it at all,and now its taken the shine off it for me,which I know is silly but why say it in the first place?Simple cruelties are the worst.
Anyway I did have a good night and got very,very drunk-bought some chips on the way home,fell asleep,woke up to watch CBB then puked!

What a night!


I feel like crap today.

oh god...

where are my work keys?I can't find them anywhere,I am in the shit if I have lost them!!!**panics**

am I chav?

according to an email survey I did at work the other day I am 28% chav,(at least I didn't get the top score of 82% though)-and I embraced chavness today after I went to my physio and wore a 'Juicy' style trackie and uggs (real) so that I wouldnt have to take my trousers off,then decided to go to Argos (!)on the way back,well I fitted right in as I walked down the market,I decided to go for the whole experience and stopped at a chav shoe shop and purchased the boots above for £10.I think they are ok,I have wanted Ugg Nomads for ages,but I cant afford them,so I am satisfying my need with these which should last until it gets warmer at least!

As I was walking up through the market I bought some veg for a £1 a bowl,very chavvy but bargainous-I should do this more and save lots of money whilst being healthy,however to do this on a regular basis I will need a chav shopper,preferably in 'Eastend' check,which I did see on sale on the market as I was walking aswell.
Mmmm,I think I fitted in too well,so I will be making more of an effort in future,maybe wearing my NEW DRESS (see below) which is Primarni,but I got off Ebay for LESS THAN THE PRICETAG!!I also recieved in the post today a Laura Lees dress that I got for a bargainous £11 inc p+p,just because someone didnt list it properly,I am not sure I will wear it until summer as it it is sleeveless,but I can always relist and sell for more if I dont!!!I love Ebay sometimes!