check out these fit workmen that are working on my road at the moment,I keep having to move my car out of the way for them and they are all GORGEOUS!That never happens does it?There is one whose work I have been keeping an eye on who has big muscly arms and was smiling at white van man's little girl earlier,so sexy when men are sweet with little kids!I might have to park my car in the way again!

personal DNA test #2

Attentive Designer

I did this test awhile ago and that time came up as an 'Attentive Dreamer',this time I am 'Attentive Designer' so I'm not sure why thats changed cos its the sort of test where you cant remember 'correct' answers.
It worries me that it comes back with low feminity though,is that because I do a typically masculine job?I was talking about this yesterday with another (rare) female officer,who asked me did I find it hard to balance the line between being feminine and masculine at work?I do,and she said she felt the same way.I really dont want to be one of those women who turn into 'one of the lads' in order to fit in,watching football and belching (urgh!) and swearing alot,cos thats not me-well the swearing is,but thats often justified!



Take the test here http://www.personaldna.com/

this week I have........

*had road rage.Several times (this is why I don't drive at work!)
*sorted out the station Xmas party (Indian restaurant and some people are STILL moaning)
*bought....
a cape
a new toilet seat
tights
an elasticated belt (just realised stupid SA overcharged me by £2)
a snake ring
dangly earrings
a skull t-shirt
a woolly super-long scarf
a black camisole
a plaited leather hairband
lipgloss
foundation
2x OPI nail polish
some whitening toothpaste cos I am obsessed with whitening my teeth atm.
*done no work for a course day I have tomorrow,should be able to blag it though.
*been asked out by a newish colleague who should know better-he started off saying did I fancy going for a drink,which I took to be friendly and then ended up him suggesting I cook him a meal!WTF?Do I look like I am easy?Oh and would that be for you and your wife,you fuckwit?
*eaten a curry and a pizza at work-no wonder I am getting fat.And a chinese.
*had to put up with my car smelling of sick.I have'nt been sick in it so can't think why it smells-one of the lads at work checked to see if I had a DEAD ANIMAL in the engine,but luckily there wasn't-I did have the previously mentioned pizza in my car last week but surely the smell wouldnt last that long?

new dress

I just bought this new dress that I hope I will wear instead of always wearing jeans-I hate the way I always end up in jeans for work cos its the easy option,so I am trying to make a bit more of an effort.

why am I not surprised?!?!

I posted about a guy at work I liked a few weeks ago,well I've seen him at work a couple of times since and I *think* there was a bit of flirting going on,HOWEVER yesterday I was talking to my mate at work who doesnt know I like this guy (no-one does,I keep things like that under my hat)and he mentioned that this bloke had been with the STATION BLOODY BIKE that shagged the man I was seeing ages ago-is there no man that slapper hasn't been with?FFS,there's no way on earth I am going anywhere near him now.Just when I thought I had my sights set on a nice guy,I find out he's been with her-she's not even very attractive and why would anyone want to go with her knowing full well she quite literally has been with half the men in the job,and told everyone about it (apart from the obvious,but even then?!)

Is it any wonder I am so cynical?I give up.

way too many cocktails!

Met up with the fashion contingent on Saturday,I missed the first bit of the Couture exhibition at the V&A (was going to post a link but I still can't work out how to do it!) cos I didnt get in from work until the early hours after scraping up a dead body at work,as you do,I knew something would happen to make me late cos we were going to have a team curry and something always kicks off if we do that,usually just after when I can only waddle,this time it was before but I was determined not to miss the meet up cos I need the girly company.
We went to a rather nice cocktail bar where the staff were little cuties but SLOW-they messed up our orders so many times I offered to help them behind the bar (I've never worked behind a bar btw)and the waiter said yes,probably expecting me to go all coy and toddle off,so he looked a bit scared when I got up and went to do it,luckily for them I just got us our cutlery,if I had have got my hands on the drink it would have cost them alot in alcohol.
As per usual,I ended the night in my local kebab shop eating chips with chilli sauce and then walked home from the tube station,crashing infront of the tv and then waking up and not sleeping the entire night,so I was hungover and tired on Sunday.
Love it though,I wore my Primark cream blouse with black skinny jeans and black patent flat slip-ons with my new Topshop black studded bag,and my usual Tatty Devine name necklace.

right..........

where do I start?I still feel a bit shit and work is shit too-the sergeant I said previously might be trouble for me is just that atm,I might have to do his legs if he carries on like this.Tosser.
Anyway I am considering my options,I am not staying where I am to be beaten down by some nutjob sergeant,he is also splitting up me and my partner in crime fighting,which we are both not happy about,we deliver the goods and we work well together so why fix what isnt broken?

Anyway did my usual retail therapy today (must stop spending must stop spending!)and bought;

*new baggy jeans-River Island

*'griege' granded top-River Island

*long sleeved top,1x cream 1x black-Primark
*cream sheer pintucked blouse that some woman who was also looking at it described as 'looking like it was owned by a chain smoking granny' which put me off somewhat but it looks cute (I think)

*more pink knickers for work,its my little rebellion for having to wear an unfeminine uniform!

*a sequin beret-but head is so massive,I'm not sure it looks ok-River Island had some but they were small too,I need a head reduction or something.

*random opaques,lip gloss,a black fitted sheet for when I fake tan.


oh,and my bag arrived and I totally love it,its my new favourite bag.For now!

not happy

I am so unhappy at the moment.
I hate work,my personal life has flatlined.I dont know what to do-nothing specific has happened but nothing is going right and work inparticular is bringing the worst out of me.I feel so isolated there and at times it is like working with ungrateful schoolboys who will stab you in the back in lieu of any camaradarie-for all the talk of a modern police force sometimes underneath the surface is the same old macho culture and I am dying a death in it.I cant relax and I dont feel like I can be myself anymore.I saw my friend who I joined with yesterday and she is of the same mind somewhat-I can be myself with her and feel as though I am listened to and liked and as though I am of some value.All things lacking at work for me at this time.

Do I even want to put up with all the abuse you get doing this job?There are some scummy people out there and all I want just lately is to not be around these vile people who dont give anything to society,not have to worry about about getting stabbed or complained about,not to listen to the same old crap coming out of the mouths of these leaches,not to have to do the right thing all the time.

This is probably the most open post I have done for a long time now,I need some good things to happen to me.

Owwwwwwwwwwww!

I burnt my hand last night by splashing hot oil on it-and it bloody hurt!For such a small area it was incredibly painful-much worse than any other burns I've had before and I spent the night with hand wrapped in an ice cooler.This photo was taken with my new all singing,all dancing camera,so expect lots more tedious photos in this blog from now on.

I was supposed to be going out tonight with one of my naughty drinking partners but he's let me down at the last minute which is a shame as I wanted to wear my new leather jacket and get very drunk seeing as I have been off the wine for nearly a week now (see earlier post),I will break my self imposed wine ban though tonight anyway in preparation for tomorrow night-I am meeting an old friend who joined the job before me and I havent seen him for ages,I need to pick his brains as I *might* be defecting to the other side.Well,I'm mulling the idea over anyway.

Primark Winter 2007

I LOVE both of thse coats,but what are the chances of them ever being instore?

some home ideas I have ..

I am fed up with my flat at the moment,there are lots of things that need doing that I cant afford to get done really or will lead onto other jobs beng done,so I don't know where to start-you know how one job cant be done in isolation,so I end up doing nothing!


I wish everyone would paint their flats lovely ice-cream colours in my street,it would look so pretty and increase the desirablity of the area.One day I will get round to painting mine a pale green to try and cover up the pebble dashing nastiness that is atm,so I can't talk either!



I want to put some subtle 'original' features back into my Victorian/Edwardian flat-it probably never had any in the first place but it looks as though it should have-like these ceiling roses.Oh,and a chandelier.


a garden decking area like this.....



I love the light rope that lights up the underneath.


a mirror maybe like this one to replace the mirror I have already that I dont like anymore.


an original movie poster like this one I saw in Kimberly Stewarts house in L.A on MTV Cribs!



I love the colour of this bathroom wall and the floor.


love this headboard too-I could make this though.

urgghhhhhh!

spiders!!Little fuckers,its spider season again and they have got their flippin webs all across my garden-I was hanging out my washing yesterday and walked into a web which stuck to my face then the spider fell down my top!So if you saw someone waving their arms about and screaming whilst hanging out the washing-that was me.

no other reason to post this other than to say 'how totally shaggable does George Clooney look here?!'I would anyway.

Panorama

I don't usually comment on work stuff,but I am watching this now,and all I can think is what a load of rubbish!!Its true there is a lot of paperwork,and my force is apparently one of the worst for paperwork (we do our own files),but its not THAT bad,the thing I find more annoying is some duty officer sitting in an office monitoring the radio and chasing you up to take action on jobs that only need 'words of advice' or a stop at most.I am young in service so I suppose its different what it used to be but I can't help thinking its exaggerating somewhat.Lots of the easy detections they are talking about are what lazy officers do and I can't imagine that has changed any over the years,there are always plenty of easy jobs to be had and the hard jobs never give you any ticks in boxes anyway in my experience.Timewasting in custody however is a different matter,but I cant change that and it's no different wherever you go.



BTW,why has my blogger dashboard gone German?

aaawwww

"The 12-week-old macaque was rescued on Neilingding Island, in Goangdong Province, China, after being abandoned by his mother.

Taken to an animal hospital, he was weaned back to physical health but still showed little appetite for life.

It was not until a fellow patient, a white pigeon, took him under her wing and showed him love and affection that he perked up.

Now the two are inseparable, say staff."


I am a sucker for cute little baby monkeys!

mmmmm.......

I like someone at work.
I can't tell if he's interested though,he certainly knows who I am now,whereas he didnt a week or 2 ago and I hadn't noticed him until now but I'm so out of practice and feeling like a bit of a fat minger these days that I can't flirt too much incase he is horrified,and now he's gone back to his home station I wont see him that often.......his colleague mentioned in passing last week that he was going on a date ,so he's not properly attached but I really cant read the signs anymore.*sigh*

in the last 2 days I have bought...

a black t-shirt top with frilly front~Miss Selfridge £18
hair accessories~Miss S + H&m
white oversized sweatshirt~£10 H&M
6X CD's £1 EACH from Borders (I cant get into downloading tunes)
'Cook yourself thin' book ~£5 'cos I had a voucher
a pink yoga mat~£6
wrist and ankle weights~£4
a pink sunscreen for my car~£3
Blue Cult jeans from TK Maxx~£20-if I wasn't so fat atm I would have looked good in the bargainous Superfines or Sass & Bides Misfits they had.
Boots 'Protect and Perfect' now I could finally get some without queuing up~£17.
oh,and I've ordered a new digital camera online,but haven't got it yet.


I think thats all

I saw this the other day

when I was out on a job,on a car driven by a man so either he thinks he's the D's B's or he doesn't realise what it spells,I pointed it out to the guys I was working with who didnt know how to take it I dont think 'cos it was the first time I'd worked with them,but I thought it was hilarious,could have just been lack of food though.I'd started at 7 and didnt get to eat till 1,so by then I was talking gibberish-we all were,so went off to a cafe somewhere out in the sticks to have 2x fried eggs,chips and beans,no wonder I cant lose weight.

wine

is it wrong that I can't stop quaffing wine atm?I dont drinks masses,but I am drinking about 2 glasses every night-thats quite alot for me at home.Everywhere these days they go on and on about binge drinking....whatever.......but I love drinking-I love the mad conversations you have when you are a bit tipsy,I love the flirting and all the gossip people tell you,even though I ALWAYS forget it in the morning which is a bit annoying.I love doing naughty things that I wouldnt dare do if I was sober.I especially love drinking when you are not supposed to.At the moment I am loving Echo Falls 'white wine' which sounds like a load of cheap rubbish,but its lovely,and Ogio Pinot Grigio.


And,yes,I have started already!

found

my missing hairdresser yesterday-what a relief,its horrible trying to find a new one.