mug shots

I keep forgetting to blog-its not that I've lost interest but I just don't automatically go to blog these days,as a reminder I'm posting a link to this fab site with the funniest custody shots-all American though as I doubt jailers would stand for it over here.http://www.thesmokinggun.com/archive/years/2008/1217081mugyear1.html

I still don't know how to post a link correctly on Blogger though

how much do I love monkeys??!!!

I've said before how much I love monkeys,and this is why!!!I'd love to have one as a pet.

Natural World: Cheeky Monkey

oh,by the way.......

I did get it but I'm not ure now its the right thing to do,given the condtitions.

prosseco

I have drunk a whole bottle of this tonight.Aand eaten 5 packets of crisps,even though they were low fat (2%) ones.My cousin died on Sunday at 42,she had been very very ill for years and its a relief really.But 42?Its so sad.All I do these days is post about man at work,but things had been ok even after the last post about him-he said he was scared of falling inlove and what my family would think of him etc and asked did I want to meet his children?Yes of course I said,he was asking me did I want to have kids (hello,yes!) and he got me hopin and ofcourse he is nowhere to be seen when I nees him.I am such a fuckwit for falling for him.

I am growing my fringe out

again.I won a free wash+blow dry last week at John Frieda and as well as the said w+bd,free champagne and nibbles,I got a goody bag containing a shampoo+conditioner,serum,night treatments and hair gleam,all free for turning up and worth about £25!The girl who did my hair was really sweet and offered to do me some D for P,as she was loving my slightly squiffy stories!I will see if shes true to her word,as JF is not normally somewhere I could afford (£120 for 1/2 head highlights and £90 cut and blow dry!).
Now I'm not sure whether to grow out the fringe again and to cut my hair as its gotten very long and I am fed up of it,it doesnt help that I have to have it tied up in a bun all the time at work either.

interview

I have an interview next week to transfer to the dark side (haha)and I am told the current buzz word is 'demographic',I just about knew what it meant,so I shall try and drop that in if it doesnt make me sound too poncy.I also have to do the fitness test,I've done it so many times before but I still struggle on the upper body strength push and pull test,and it doesnt help when the blokes at work say 'oh its barely worth doing its so easy' cos I really struggle with it,I just dont have alot of natural strength in my arms although this doesnt stop me doing the job,I think the test should be you running after a 16 year old in full uniform after eating a kebab,then it'd be accurate!Even when I train down the gym and build up my arms I cant do it properly,so I am hoping I can wing it this time.


P.S who wants the 'finders fee' if they still do it?

no surprises

Man at Work has gone awol on me again,2 weeks after saying he didnt want to lose me and hoped it wasn't too late.I never learn do I?I don't know if he's playing around with other women or just isnt ready for a proper relationship and just thinks he is every now and then,and then bottles it,but I'm done (always wanted to say that The Hills stylee!),jeez men are so weird!

well.........

as per usual I have left it ages to update,and the longer I leave it the harder it is to actually do it,but thanks for your comments and prompts to update.

Lots of things have happened since I last posted,especially with the man at work.In a nutshell,we had a big talk before I left my old station,I realised I got some things wrong and things ended up being back on.Then everyone at work found out which lead me to believe that he was gossiping about us so we fell out again,we have however made it up since then and so far things have been good.He swears blind he has not cheated on me and has not been with the girl who I emailed and that she was taking things into her own hands regarding him,which I can believe although I know there is no smoke without fire,and he must have been encouraging her.I want to believe him though and I cant explain properly in words but his actions are more consistent with the man I know than the one I thought he had become,I want to believe him and I want to give it a go because I can't forget about him.I found out also the person who was telling everyone at work was the ex-Mr 'it'll all end in tears'!!What an idiot,he must be jealous to come in and gossip about us 2 after all this time.Its all so petty and make me realise who men never grow up!Mr 'it'll all end in tears' had better be very careful about what gossip he spreads about me,because I could do the same about him that would ruin his ladies man rep at work,if you know what I mean ;-)!!!The knob.


Enough of that for now,I am sick to death of talking about it and justifying myself and I just want to move on and give this relationship a go,and if it all ends badly then at least I have tried and followed my heart instead of my head for once.I am at a new station now which is so much better than my old one,I work with a good team who actualy know what theyre doing and a sergeant who isnt a complete knob who doesnt know what he's talking about and who doesnt hate me,so work is good which has helped alot,I was in such a bad place mentally before,the ex-sgt was making me start to belive I was a terrible person who everyone hated and I was worth nothing and could do nothing right,when in fact it him who that applies to,not me.

What would one of my posts be without me adding some pics of things I have bought??I have lost my shoping mojo it seems so there are only a few things,but this little jacket which is more of a teal colour irl and is the sort of thing I almost couldnt decide if I loved or hated


and this lace jacket which I think looks very vintage

I am in shock

I messaged this other woman and got a reply this morning,

Hi,

thanks for your email. Have you seen *knobface* since he has got back from holiday? You have said that you two are over now, is this a result of finding out about me?

I'm just a little curious are either one of these your numbers:

mobile number 1
mobile number 2


I'm really sorry as i have had no idea about you or anyone else.

Miss X.


I mailed her back and said they werent my numbers (which they're not)and go this reply after 1/2 an hour,

I've spoken to *knobface* who has explained the situation and to be honest i think you two need to deal with it.

Miss X.

So,he's wormed his way out of it with her by probably saying we did once go out and it was me bothering him or something like that.I should imagine she has decided to believe it even though she obviously had some suspicions as she asked me about other numbers.

I am dreading work now,it will be hell.





*My name for him,not hers.

why am I such a fool?

Well,as I said earlier he is back from holiday.I spoke to him on the day he got back although it wasn't the joyous conversation I had imagined as he was knackered and seemed to think it would be better to speak the next day-er no not in my books it wasn't.Anyway he's been ill all week so I havent seen him and he wasn't returning my calls.I finally spoke to him last night (!)and he said he had been running between bed and the toilet etc etc,I didnt quite belive it all but he said he'd phone me today.You can guess the rest,I asked him to call me before X-Factor (get my priorities right!)and in the meantime I was browsing Facebook (devils work)and saw a post off a woman saying 'are you excited?' so I can see straight away he's been intouch with someone,not me.So I do a bit of detective work and look at her profile,and see shes bought tickets to something-I'm guessing thats what the post is about.I keep digging and check her posts and they are all relating to him,these are them;
X wishes the sexy policeman would hurry up and get better!
X cannot wait for the policeman to get home!
X is counting down the days until the sexy policeman gets home :(.
X going to start doing some work so that she wont be thinking about the sexy policeman being away for 2 weeks :(.
X thinks that a certain policeman rocks her world!

I am shaking,I keep digging and on his posted items he put something like 'policeman and exGF are such dummies they cant rotate the picture',the day this was posted they are also listed as being in a relationship-this was back in May when we were supposedly trying to sort out a relationship with each other and its also alot later in the year than when he said they were seeing each other which I kind of had sussed out already,at that time he had some pictures of his daughters on there with her and when I quizzed him about it at the time he said it was a friend,he later admitted who she was,but that the pictures were old.

I can almost understand the lying about the ex-GF to make it easy to explain to me,but this new woman????All this was/is happening whilst he was texting me sweet nothings from holiday and joking about future babies before he went.
I am in shock,this is not some random man who I don't know from Adam,I've known him for about 2 1/2 years and have worked closely with him and been close to him as friends.He chased me (see previous posts!)and even yesterday was telling me not to give up on him,on holiday he was saying how much he loved the place and 'next year you're coming here with me'.I am going to let her know what a wanker he is.

Seriously,what do I do wrong?I loved him which was rather quick but the friends thing changed everything.

he's back

so we'll see what happens-if anything,cos you know I am a doubter.

counting down the days

As I said previously,'man at work' has gone on holiday.Without me but with his ex gf.How bloody wrong is that?He booked it when he was seeing her at the start of the year (which is ok cos we werent anything then)but didnt tell me about it until I found out by accident.
So I confront him and it turns out he was still going with her and her whole bloody family was now going as they are no longer together-her Mother,her Sister and brother-in-law and her (male) mate,I was fucking well raging/gutted/shocked/jealous,everything.So I told him I was calling it a day as I couldnt handle that and the fact he hadn't told me sooner.
Anyway,it put me in a weird situation because I didn't want to lose him but couldnt let him take the piss either.We ended up having a big talk and came to a 'terms of agreement' of how we would handle it,I'm still not sure if I'm being a mug but I told him to phone me before he went,he did and he texted me when he landed and he's kept in regular touch this week,so thats all good.He swears on his daughters life that nothing will happen,and like a bloody teenager I will make him do it again when he gets back as I know he wouldn't do that on a lie.
Years ago I would have dumped him and moved on,but thats never done me any favours either,so I am just going with it for now and hoping I'm not being made a fool of,'cos I am missing him.
Bloody men-I can't live with them and can't live without them.I hate all this up and down and analysing and game playing,I never cheat on partners and I'm loyal to them as well.My friends are not impressed either,needless to say,but I think I've fucked things up in previous relationships by being too cautious so I am doing the opposite with him.

shopping round up

I went shopping today to take my mind off my 'man at work' who has gone on holiday without me,I might blog it later but its too complicated for now.I bought these shoes for work,when I have to be smart as they're not too high.

This organic shopping bag,she asked me if I wanted one to put my purchases in,so I said yes and paid for my own shopping bag,mmmmm.

Chunky cardigan,to wear with jeans and Uggs.

This All Saints lookalike cardigan,alot cheaper than the actual All Saints ones I have!

This dress-not steamed the creases out here but you get the idea!Just need somewhere to wear it now,I thought it was quite Westwood?

These peeptoes,not that I can walk in them....


I did get a few other bits,mainly knickers but no-one needs to see those!

back to black

Its easier to post about this rather than real life,that might be later....








I was inspired by this picture I found,so I've got the wallpaper (although I dont know how to wallpaper)and I got the bedframe (that needs spraying completely white as its cream atm) and then I shall have a boudoir.The mirror is an idea as I have the same kind of mirror but its gilded-I might paint it black for the bedroom.I would quite like a black sheepskin rug too if thats not going too far.

I met a blogger the other night...............

Mr ATNS,whose funny blog is here http://areatracenosearch.blogspot.com/.We decided to go for a drink local to both our patches,probably so that we could both run off and know where we were (even though I forgot where we were meeting!) if the other one turned out to be a physcho (sp?).He wasnt,isn't.
What do 2 people who have never met before talk about-not sure but it didnt seem to be a problem and we chatted away like we'd already met (I thought),we did a deal to get much coveted Gucci kit (police love collecting uniform that they shouldnt have!)and realised that we'd both been to the same gruesome job at the same time.
Anyway Mr ATNS,thank you for cheering me up-I am not normally so indecisive (I don't think!) but as you know,I am not quite myself atm.

And the most important topic of the night,'are we going to blog this?'.It would have been rude not to.

normal service will be resumed shortly!

same old story...............

Where to start?I have mentioned him on here before,a man at work who had a thing for me,and I didnt,then did (well didnt think I did)and more recently who I had a little kiss with on double bubble (double yea!!).Well,I cant even remember now if I blogged this but he was talking about leaving London and I suddenly saw what I really wanted-Him.
After a lot of faffing about and letting downs (by him)we eventually got together,and it felt right.Very right in fact.We've talked about long term stuff,like the future and how to work things around work etc.He's admitted that he's messed me around because he's scared of getting hurt,like I'm not,but I suppose he's a lot younger than me and doesnt have the experience of getting hurt in relationships like I have.
So all is well and we were supposed to go out today and night,and I had that feeling this morning that he was going to bail on me,instinct.I texted him and then phoned him and he wouldnt pick up,so here I am that stupid thing called hope having being ingnited in me and taken away,again
I cant even just move on and forget about him like I wouldd with any random man I'd met how did this cos he means something to me even without all the relationship stuff as I've known him for 2-3 years and we've been through quite alot at work as we used to work together as partners.I really thought this time I might get a chance to be happy with someone who likes me for what I am,rather than what men often think I am.Stupid me eh?Worse thing is I know he is genuine but it seems I am not worth the risk.

Still,wine has its uses eh?

To quote a very good blog.......

by a lovely lady,'where do I start,where do I begin?'I havent been here for ages,partially as I finally,after much angst bought a new laptop (see pics)



and I have been catching up with refinding everything I had saved in bookmarks (cos I dont know how to transfer it over)and generally not being annoyed at a crashing,freezing old desk top!!Its so quick,so easy to use,3GB HD and 250GB RAM or whatever,I had to ask my friends BF to guide me through buying it as I was stressing over buying a duffer.I initially went to PCworld and bought a desktop,very nice and all and paid for an extra 1GB to be added,well after waiting for about an hour,they said they couldnt do it and expected me to carry on with the purchase.Er,no-thats why I wanted an extra GB installed by a techy-so I got a refund and luckily I did as I ended up getting what I really wanted in the first place,a week after.I have to say,PCworld did nothing to change my image of them prior to buying-they are imcompetant and dont offer any genuine advice,they only seem to employ teenagers who only speak fluent teenage,and where I live are probably the 2 worst stores to go to.Anyway,its done now and I love it!!!Next,an Ipod or something.

I grew these!

see ya,wouldn't wanna be ya!

driving home from work today,I see some bald mid-life crisis bloke whizzing around undertaking people in his black Porsche,only to end up just infront of me in my 1.2.He was changing lanes,moving from side to side to see what was ahead and generally being a knob,then as I pulled up behind him he gave me a little wave in the mirror,like I'm impressed or summink,I couldnt help but snigger which was probably the worse thing to do as he then kept his head down and moved off rapidly.*sniggers a bit more*

Long time,no blog

its been a while.The longer I leave it,the harder it is to start again.

I've been stressed out at work,so went off to Brighton to see my friend a couple of weeks ago,I got the train there in an effort to not get stressed out and it was actually ok,bizarrely enough on the way to the platform I saw my ex-friend and her little girl.I had that split second thing where I wasn't sure whether to say anything to her,but I did and it turns out she'd just got off the Brighton train that I was about to get on!!How weird is that?Must be fate cos we are now meeting up on Friday.

Then I got a cab to her house and had a random conversation with the cabbie about buy to let property and he gave me some details of places to buy.Brighton is full of randoms!

We spent the whole weekend eating and drinking cocktails,and it just bought me back out of the work zone and reminded me of what life is meant to be about.I love being by the sea there and just wandering around,I did manage a couple of purchases whilst I was there,I am trying to buy stuff I won't go off in 2 minutes which has worked so far.I got an All Saints Pirate cardigan and some metallic Havaianas.Pics if I can upload some.

the funeral

I went to my Nan's funeral yesterday.I haven't seen my Dad's side of the family for years on the whole (apart from my Nan obviously) 'cos they all live miles away from me-well I live miles away from where I was born now.
We all met at my aunts who was looking after her over the last year and it was like a cross between The Royle Family and Shameless,I know I sound like a snob saying that,but it just made me laugh 'cos I forgot that my Dads side of the family are like that.Think council estate,lots of gold jewellery and tattoos and you get the idea.The church was a nice old fashioned one with swinging incense and proper pews which was fitting,I'm really anti-religion but I do like old fashioned churches.I tried so hard not to cry but I did anyway-good job I thought to put on waterproof mascara.
After she was buried we went back to this really rough pub,and I had a chance to catch up with my cousins who I haven't seen for years-one of them has got 7 kids (!)and was at pains to let me know her kids were good because they hadn't been arrested,which shows how different we are and made me laugh.We got on well though and I was quite touched that they still accepted me,even though I was probably always the odd one out being very shy and not as close to the cousins.
I know I sound like an old lady saying it was a nice funeral,but it was.

I've not been up to much this week really,I've been confined to the station 'cos of a hand injury that got worse after a violent arrest (see post below) and the doc thinks I might have a slight fracture in my finger cos it still hurts 2 weeks later,however haven't bothered to go and get it x-rayed as I hate sitting in hospitals,anyway at least this way I am up to date on all my paperwork and have been very mellow on account of the painkillers the doc gave me.
Speaking of painkillers,I have spent about £30 on prescriptions this week-£30!remind me what I'm paying so much NI for again??
I mentioned I had mice in my kitchen last week?Well I was lying on my sofa with Sidney (my cat) and we both heard scurrying from behind the skirting boards,at least thats where I think it came from,then I get up the next day and there was a little dead mouse on my living from floor-a present from Sid no doubt,not the nicest present to wake up to,and I hate them running around the flat but I hate seeing them dead too.

this week

I am enduring a week-long training course,David Brent stylee.The trainer says 'yeah?' after everything he says and I am looking forward to him prancing in at the end of the week to 'Simply the best'.
To add insult to injury,they are telling us things we already know and are already doing at work!I have so little interest in what they are saying I am even keeping my gob shut for once,I am always happy to learn new things,but not to sit there and have someone tell me how to do the basics I worked out for myself years ago.At least lunch is free.

Also a couple of weeks ago,my 'man at work',the man who has always liked me and I just wanna be friends etc etc said he was moving away (long story-he's not going though now),cue me being gutted and realising I do like him and what the hell,lets just go for it,well he hasnt really made what I call an effort to see me and now he isnt going to see me on my birthday-why do men do this shit?All I want is someone to be with and have fun with so whys that so bloody difficult?I am really pissed off with him cos I've let my guard down with him and now I dont know if he can be bothered that much.I cant take this let down anymore,goddamn him I like him now and we havent even kissed properly,let alone sleep together!We had a mini kiss at the weekend when we were unexpectedly working together,then I got punched in the face which sums up my life these days.

R.I.P Nan

My Nan died yesterday after being admitted to hospital on Tuesday,my Dad called me on Wednesday to say she was dying but not to go up as she wouldn't even know I was there and today I found a feather outside my front door which I have always been told is a sign from someone who's died.I like to believe it anyway.
I went out with my friend yesterday as planned and had a few drinks (1 for Nan,even though she didn't drink) and lots of food which I think was the best way to handle it cos otherwise I get too upset and wallow in it,this way I could handle it,and P is like a sister to me so she knows how to be with me when I'm upset.


I am adding some Nan-type things she used to say to us,that won't mean anything to anyone else but made us laugh

'yam saft'-she was from the Black Country and it took me and my brothers years to work out what she meant!

'have some cake,go on,have some cake'-we'd reluctantly eat it then she'd say 'Don't eat it all save some for everyone else!'

oooooooohhhhhhh,

I think I have a mouse in my kitchen!!I opened one of the drawers today and there was a perfect circle chewed out of the corner of a bag of flour and bits of paper scattered around!!I looked inside the bag and there were little round indentations where a mouses nose had probably pressed against!Yuk-I made Stanley have a sniff around to see if he would get a mouse scent,but he didn't seem overly bothered,the ungrateful little sod!
I had mice a few years ago and stood screaming on a chair whilst I flicked open a cupboard door and shoved the boys in-they did catch a few on that occasion though.


*shudders*

tagged by Annette

and here are the rules:
1. Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog.

2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.

3. Tag 7 people at the the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to your blogs.

4. Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.


er,I'll try Annette!-do I know 7 other bloggers though?


1.I have 2 tattoos,and in another life I will be all tattooed up like Kat Von D!

2.I drive like a boy racer,apparently

3.I once dated a man who played in a famous singers band.

4.I believe in reincarnation,I think.

5.I'm a bookworm,and cant imagine a life without books.

6.I love sorting washing and loading up the machine.

7.I once chatted up a royal!


I tag........
1.Area Trace No Search
2.Where Do I start,Where Do I begin?
3.Girl Next Door
4.Totally Un Pc-although I don' think he'll do it!!haha
5.Girl With the Golden Touch
6.er,I cant htink of anyone else who hasnt already been tagged!

I bought a few things

This dress-much nicer than this photo shows,its very Chloe!


velour hotpants-totally impractical as I'll never wear them outdoors,but they are so cute!

star scarf-I got a few to put on Ebay too!

heart pyjama bottoms,for lounging around the house

grey silky dress-looks so pretty on,looks crap in the photo though

stripy waistcoat-I like waiscoats,they look very rock-chick over vest tops and cover up my spare tyres!

stripy bib-front t-shirt,I also got one in grey,these are my throw on for work whilst looking like I've made a bit of an effort!

also bought some lacy knicks from M&S-I havent shopped in there for ages,I really like some of the bras they had in but I find M&S bras make my boobs look pointy!



I feel a bit better now.

today

I got my artwork today-its fabulous,but has been slightly damaged by Royal Mail-how typical!!I am hoping the artist can send me some of the paint she used so I can repair it as it is impractical to send it back to her!I'm not sure where to put it now,in the living room or the bedroom?
Also on the homefront,I have got the green finger bug again-I do every year then lose it again in the winter,so I have bought 2 big black modern planters for £10 each (bargain!)some compost (yawn!)and a white lavender and strawberry plants and seeds for herbs and veg,I will be virtually self sufficient at this rate.I started a herb bed last year from an old raised flower bed in my garden that would have cost too much money and effort to remove,so I am going to try and get that running properly this year-expect lots of photos of random herbs and vegetables.

On a completely different note-I am gutted that Simon off The Apprentice has been fired-why Sir Alan?I fancy his cheeky Essex accent and his try-hard character!Should have been that slime Alex or bolshy Claire that got fired!

*I would*

Little Lotus

I also commissioned a piece of artwork from a lady I found on Ebay and whose work I admired,I chose the size and pattern and gave her a sample of the colour I wanted which I got from wallpaper by Cole & Son that I want in my bedroom.I have always wanted to do this,and the price I paid was extremely reasonable-better than buying a bog standard print that everyone else will have,can't wait to get it now!!

The wallpaper



The artwork,called Little Lotus






it should arrive tomorrow,I just hope I can get a screw in the wall without pulling half of it down!

The Marathon

These are photos I took on my phone of the Marathon,I didnt run it-I policed it,not that it needed much policing,even though I had my rest day canceled for it and no food for 8 hours!I had a boring place to police this time and I didnt see anyone famous apart from Brian Paddick if you can call that vain thing famous,he was waving to the crowds like he was a star or something the idiot!I never saw Gordon Ramsey so I dont know if he ran this year,every year I look out for him but never see him-maybe he cheats or something?

Some apples and a camel


the Masai Warriors,who werent running that fast-I thought Masai could run really fast?


Some fit men dressed as Rocky!


I also got a wave from the Metropolitan Police who were running with police tape wrapped around them and got chatted up by a rival police officer who bought me some tea as I was freezing,and I got invited out for a drink up by a girl I was chatting to whose Dad was running the race!Oh I knew it would be ok when I was re-deployed away from a half-wit sergeant I should have been working with-I couldnt bear to spend the day trapped with him!

Thanks for everyone's concern about Stan-he is eating and sleeping a bit more than normal but I think he's ok,even though he cost me a date I had to cancel to go and rescue him-he did me a favour I reckon though as the bloke sounded like a bit of a lazy bastard,as he was saying to me that he couldnt be bothered to travel far to see someone and didnt like driving etc etc,and could only see someone every 2 weeks at weekends as he sees his kids,talk about killing something before its started-I thought to myself 'you're not selling yourself very well here mate!'so Stan gave me the excuse to cancel and I wont bother to call him again.

I bought this bag last week to cheer myself up over Stan,its gorgeous but not very practical at all as I cant get much into it,




and these boots from Topshop

MY BABY'S BACK!!!

Stan is back.He's thin,dirty,has a graze on his shoulder and is very jumpy but he's back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stan is alive!

oh joy!!My baby is ok.I haven't got him home yet,because he is still trapped in an empty flat.A neighbour from my street called me on Tuesday to say she had seen him in the window but when I went round I couldn't see him and he didn't come to me when I called him,but she was so adamant that I got the site foreman to open up the flat and have a look,I was at work so he obviously didn't look hard enough and swore blind he wasn't there!Anyway this morning 2 people called me to say they had seen him sitting in the window,so I called the foreman again-I could tell he was thinking 'mad cat woman' at this point,so I told him I would get the RSPCA and police to smash a window to get him out if necessary.When I got home I could hear him miaowing but I couldn't see him at all,so I called the foreman again and he promised he would send round one of his boys to open the flat up,but surprise surprise he didn't so I called the RSPCA to attend and they called him to open up the flat tomorrow,so now I have to wait till then to get my baby out-who I did finally see earlier,he is so thin and dirty and has graze on his shoulder but at least he's not dead!I put some food and ice cubes through the letter box for him,well I did after I had made some ice cubes 'cos the only ones I had were wine ones!!

I have made these posters and posted them all along my street and the street behind in the hope of finding him!

my baby is missing

I haven't seen him since Thursday morning and I know something has happened 'cos he would NEVER stay away this long-he loves to hang around the flat with me and wants food all the time so I know he hasnt just gone off for a jolly.oh god.

cat burglar

here are 2 pictures I took of a little cat I nicknamed 'Tox' who followed us into the station last night,well he did after some encouraging from us,he then climbed on the skippers desk,ran round the office and kept running away from us,we finally enticed him out of the guvnors office incase we had to explain why there was cat shit on the desk the next day!

didnt know where to start,its been so long

over Canary Wharf

amazing picture over Whitehall


So I thought I'd just jump in with this-on Tuesday-the Red Arrows flew over where I work,so we all trotted out into the yard to see them until the guvnor said maybe its an April Fool joke?Luckily it wasn't,and they flew over us,but they were so fast I forgot to take a picture on my new phone,duh!This is the said phone-pink and girly,but someone has to take a stand in a sea of black and yellow.

its quite good so far as it has a 5mp camera and macro,pretty good for a phone I think,I kept getting offered super-phones but I couldnt get how to use them all I want is a pretty phone that texts easily and takes good photos.






*pictures not taken by me,borrowed off the BBC site

I bought these,but the pooter was playing up yesterday so much so I couldnt post without going mad!

grey in real life though,I wanted this when it was £45,it was in the sale for £15 and £10 at the till!bargainous!

T-shirt was £16,and is very girly,I also bought a patent headband and a grey vest with little buttons on it,quite restrained I think seeing as I am on 'Op Skint' at work doing lots of overtime to make up as much money as poss whilst its still that boring time of year and I have nothing better to do!
Oh,I just remembered some things I bought on Ebay which I always forget about!An All Saints cardigan I wanted full price,no pic yet though.

where have all the bloggers gone?

am I the only person left blogging?Where are you all?

My knee hurts,before I hurt my knee at work last year-actually it was in 2006 (!),I never thought about knees,now I am constantly aware of them,I seem to always be doing something to 'the bad knee',like falling over during a search and falling on it,then the other week after arresting some fat violent twat,both knee muscles were killing me,infact they still do.Then in the one place you'd think I'd be safe (apart from knives in the back that is).....the Station,I was unloading the dishwasher seeing as noone else will do it and as I took out a cup,it slipped out of my hand,I grabbed it and it bounced off my knee!Unbelievable,I now have a big bruise on said kneecap.

I am rapidly developing Genuphobia!

Saturday

I am watching Saturday Kitchen right now before I go to work (I swapped shifts to get a lie in and work with my ex-partner in crime fighting)and there is a chef on there who has a prosthetic arm,I didnt notice at first but how on earth does he cook with only the use of one arm?

Also,I accidentally found out by reading someone else's blog yesterday who wins America's Next Top Model,season 9,or whatever season it is thats just happened,how annoying-I love that programme,even though I keep thinking should I be watching things like this or should I be watching more 'grown up' type tv?Oh well I guess it is the girly equivalent of men watching football or some other sports rubbish on Dave!


And,I have joined a dating site seeing as I never seem to meet any men anymore,I'm not going to say which one,but I did all this years ago when it was the latest thing to do and met one of the loves of my life online,I met some complete cocks on there too but that happens IRL as well so I thought I'd better pull my finger out and try again,cos as much as I am scared of being cheated on again,lied to or just falling for someone who doesn't feel the same,I am fed up on my own and the more I am on my own the more I get used to it,but I really don't want to be in this same position in 5 years time,I already feel I have wasted the last couple of years or so by not having met anyone serious after my last long term boyfriend,I have had a few flings and met someone who I could have really fallen for (he was taken though so I was not going there!)but that has been all,and this job doesn't help at all with the hours/attitude/cynicism/lack of decent uniform/being surrounded by cheats,blah blah blah!

lovely things,total price £340

and this lovely silk dress which I'd have nowhere to wear it to,but still..........

Blogger's block

I think I've got it.
I have nothing to write about at the moment,as all I'm doing is working,if its not overtime,its late arrests or shit operations!My toenails need repainting,my hair needs cutting and colouring and my flat is a mess,I haven't even got time to take my car to the garage as I need it for work,and I am aching all over after a dealing with a twat the other night who needed 6 burly officers to put into his police cab (btw,I wonder if one of those officers was another blogger fave of mine!???)and that and an overflowing locker of files is all my life consists of currently!


*keeps thinking of all the dosh*

where do I start?

not been able to blog for ages 'cos I have spent waaaaayyy too much time working of late,and only some of it was double bubble.Anyway I might have to resort to a list like I always do when I get bloggers block.....



*went shopping with the lovely L and bought........
Primark.
black puff sleeved jumper
black knit tank top
cream Chloe-esque blouse
black military jacket
grey stripe grandad top
white vest with tiny buttons


Topshop.
knee high boots with side zip
skinny silk scarf with tiny skulls

Coco Ribbon.
black Uggs

Ebay.
leather belt with coins on it-sounds awful but its lovely and will replace the one I have from when I was 20 that doesn't fit anymore!
a crystal skull
a rug for my living room

*flashed someone!*embarrassed!*

*rented out my house and didn't die of stress in the process.

*got blown a kiss by a granny who I stopped to let cross the road.

*had a smooch with Mr 'it'll all end in tears'

*hardly eaten anything cos I've been ill and too busy which is not like me at all.

*had someone tell me they were in love with me but I don't feel the same way,I wish I could,but I just don't.Never got any valentines though.

*nearly got punched at work.

FFS!

Some bastard has nicked the ariel off my car,I wondered why the radio wasn't tuning in the other day,just as well I didn't see them or I would have lost it 'cos I am very protective of my car even though its old as the hills!
Christ,last time someone took the 4 miss matched wheel trims off it,leave it alone for goodness sake,and to the man with a van across the road (not 'white van man')who I think knocked into my wing mirror and bent it inwards,I am watching you,if I see you go near my car again,you'd better hope you have tax/MOT/etc!!!!!


*pissed off now*

this week so far

I've been mad busy the last few days so I haven't had time to update properly!

Firstly I heard back from the job and I didn't get it,I came 3rd out of 5 candidates for 2 jobs,so a not too shabby result but I feel a bit gutted,mainly because it means I am stuck where I am for awhile and I don't want to be here and secondly because I think the girl I mentioned in my previous post probably got it which is annoying because she is one of those people who is so self assured and is also a bit of a brainbox when it comes to law and she's everything I'm not really,down to the fact she turns up wearing a casual shirt and trousers looking her usual slightly scruffy self and I wore a 'court smart' suit and heels (I know what DI's like!).
It was quite a hard interview,even though I had done my research I was so nervous I forgot some things,and I'm not great at being put on the spot with law I'm more a hands on person,funnily enough I got one of the hardest questions right though!


*gutted*

Yesterday went on the march for a FAIR POLICE PAY DEAL,here are some pics,see if you can spot me!!I was knackered when I got back to work,so I nicked someone so I could have a sit down in custody (ha ha)



I also lost a tenner yesterday which I am annoyed about as its not near enough to payday for my liking and I hate losing money!I *think* although its a cliche,the cleaner has found it dropped on the floor and has kept it as I'm pretty much sure of where I 'lost' it,he's a right weirdo and I swear one day he'll be in my cuffs for something-theres something not right there imo.*mmmmmmmm*

so tempted to be spiteful

I just got a text from a girl I know at work who says she has the same interview as me and she's asking what to wear.Now,do I tell her to wear the right thing or the wrong thing?????????????After all,she is competition!

Slam it to the left..............

if you're having a good time.........etc


I went to see the Spice Girls on Friday!How brilliant are they?I don't care what anyone else says I think they were,and still are great!We had seats way up in the clouds-we were so high it was quite scary cos it looks like a sheer drop when everyone's seated,I kept thinking 'if I fall then I will hit every person going down and fall over the balcony onto the audience below',now that would be embarrassing!I forgot to take my camera so I dont have any pics to bore anyone with,although I did tell one of the sergeants at work me and my friend had dressed up as Geri and Baby respectively which has got his imagination going,and now he keeps saying 'oh you have to show me the photos!' as if we were going to dress up!
It was a real nostalgia trip for me as I sang along to all the songs,David Beckham was in the audience with the Beckham boys,apparently they have been there every night,and I bumped into my friend there as well who had also been on Wednesday and seen Madonna in the audience.....MADONNA...can you believe it?I love her,why wasn't she there when I was?The audience was also full of little girls-how on earth do they know who the Spice Girls are?Anyway,this is my little review of the night.......

Scary-massive tits and a great figure,she sounded quite good and did a solo song which was good fun
Baby-sounded really good but was a bit boring,she didnt do anything special.
Posh-actually did sing but sounded crap-luckily everytime she sang,the audience drowned her out by cheering,I never saw the attraction with her,even back in the day-I can remember when they were big,my boyfriend of the time fancied her and I couldnt understand it at all!waved alot to the Beckham clan and didnt sing a solo (thankfully)
Geri-looked amazing and sounded really good considering she's no singer.
Sporty-my favourite back in the day-looked good,sounded fantastic,especially when she did her solo stuff and kicked her legs alot,participated alot more than she did back in the day.I once saw her in the gym I used to go to.

hug a granny day,kind of.........

today must have been a secret pensioners day out or something cos I have seen literally hundreds of them out and about,and they were so cute!!!All of them were cheeky little grannies with curly grey hair and twinkles in their eyes rather than the miserable old git kind,and they all love chatting to police,especially when you pretend to be looking for them,its an old joke but they love it!
I also like talking to the oldies cos they are so friendly and kind of grateful for the chatter,plus I always think of how things must be so different for them these days and I worry about some of them being out and about with some of the riff raff out there!Isnt it funny how they always tell you their age too?One old lady who was wearing a loud fuschia coat said 'I'm 85 you know,and I look after the old folk!' and another one told me how her dead daughter had been in the job,and how much she supported the police,bless 'em!

interview

oooooh,I've got an interview for the job I applied for,I knew last week 'cos my sergeant friend rang me and told me,but I didn't find the letter they had sent to me until Saturday 'cos I just threw it on the coffee table and didn't even look at it until Saturday!
Its a squad so it'll be a big career jump if I get it,not sure what to wear to the interview though,I don't think tunics cut it these days do they,or do I go in uniform?God,it'll be embarrassing having an interview with someone I already 'know' rather than someone I have never met before,I hope I can answer all the questions and not clam up,my performance in interviews always seem to be dependent on how the interviewer is with me,I know the DI thinks I'm good,so that's an advantage but I am getting my contacts to find out who the competition is so I know what I'm up against!

Don't push me 'cos I'm close to the edge...........

...........................................
It’s like a jungle sometimes
It makes me wonder how I keep from goin’ under
It’s like a jungle sometimes
It makes me wonder how I keep from goin’ under

Broken glass everywhere
People pissin’ on the stairs, you know they just don’t care
I can’t take the smell, can’t take the noise
Got no money to move out, I guess I got no choice
Rats in the front room, roaches in the back
Junkies in the alley with a baseball bat
I tried to get away but I couldn't get far
’cuz a man with a tow truck repossessed my car

Don't push me ’cuz I’m close to the edge
I’m trying not to lose my head
Uh huh ha ha ha
It’s like a jungle sometimes
It makes me wonder how I keep from goin’ under

Standin’ on the front stoop hangin’ out the window
Watchin’ all the cars go by, roarin’ as the breezes blow
Crazy lady, livin’ in a bag
Eatin’ outta garbage pails, used to be a fag hag
Said she’ll dance the tango, skip the light fandango
A Zircon princess seemed to lost her senses
Down at the peep show watchin’ all the creeps
So she can tell her stories to the girls back home
She went to the city and got social security
She had to get a pimp, she couldn’t make it on her own

Don’t push me 'cuz I’m close to the edge
I’m trying not to lose my head
Uh huh ha ha ha
It’s like a jungle sometimes
It makes me wonder how I keep from goin’ under
It’s like a jungle sometimes
It makes me wonder how I keep from goin’ under

My brother’s doin’ bad, stole my mother’s TV
Says she watches too much, it’s just not healthy
All My Children in the daytime, Dallas at night
Can’t even see the game or the Sugar Ray fight
The bill collectors, they ring my phone
and scare my wife when I’m not home
Got a bum education, double-digit inflation
Can’t take the train to the job, there’s a strike at the station
Neon King Kong standin’ on my back
Can’t stop to turn around, broke my sacroiliac
A mid-range migraine, cancered membrane
Sometimes I think I'm goin’ insane
I swear I might hijack a plane!

Don’t push me 'cuz I'm close to the edge
I’m trying not to lose my head
It’s like a jungle sometimes
It makes me wonder how I keep from goin’ under
It’s like a jungle sometimes
It makes me wonder how I keep from goin’ under

My son said, Daddy, I don’t wanna go to school
'cuz the teacher’s a jerk, he must think I’m a fool
And all the kids smoke reefer, I think it’d be cheaper
if I just got a job, learned to be a street sweeper
Or dance to the beat, shuffle my feet
Wear a shirt and tie and run with the creeps
'cuz it’s all about money, ain’t a damn thing funny
You got to have a con in this land of milk and honey
They pushed that girl in front of the train
Took her to the doctor, sewed her arm on again
Stabbed that man right in his heart
Gave him a transplant for a brand new start
I can’t walk through the park 'cuz it’s crazy after dark
Keep my hand on my gun 'cuz they got me on the run
I feel like a outlaw, broke my last glass jaw
Hear them say “You want some more?”
Livin’ on a see-saw

Don’t push me 'cuz I’m close to the edge
I’m trying not to lose my head
Say what?
It’s like a jungle sometimes
It makes me wonder how I keep from goin’ under
It’s like a jungle sometimes
It makes me wonder how I keep from goin’ under
It’s like a jungle sometimes
It makes me wonder how I keep from goin’ under
It’s like a jungle sometimes
It makes me wonder how I keep from goin’ under

A child is born with no state of mind
Blind to the ways of mankind
God is smilin’ on you but he's frownin’ too
Because only God knows what you’ll go through
You’ll grow in the ghetto livin’ second-rate
And your eyes will sing a song called deep hate
The places you play and where you stay
Looks like one great big alleyway
You’ll admire all the number-book takers
Thugs, pimps and pushers and the big money-makers
Drivin’ big cars, spending twenties and tens
And you’ll wanna grow up to be just like them, huh
Smugglers, scramblers, burglars, gamblers
Pickpocket peddlers, even panhandlers
You say I’m cool, huh, I’m no fool
But then you wind up droppin’ outta high school
Now you’re unemployed, all non-void
Walkin’ round like you’re Pretty Boy Floyd
Turned stick-up kid, but look what you done did
Got sent up for a eight-year bid
Now your manhood is took and you’re a Maytag
Spend the next two years as a undercover fag
Bein’ used and abused to serve like hell
’til one day, you was found hung dead in the cell
It was plain to see that your life was lost
You was cold and your body swung back and forth
But now your eyes sing the sad, sad song
Of how you lived so fast and died so young so...

Don’t push me 'cuz I'm close to the edge
I’m trying not to lose my head
Uh huh huh huh huh
It’s like a jungle sometimes
It makes me wonder how I keep from goin’ under
Huh, uh huh huh huh huh
It’s like a jungle sometimes
It makes me wonder how I keep from goin’ under
Huh, uh huh huh huh huh…*

yesterday at work was spent singing 'The Message' by Grandmaster Flash and the Furious Five;singing it,reciting it as poetry-which was very apt whilst dealing with a furious crowd at 'a certain location',and then singing it again in stupid made up Burnley** accents.Then we went onto White Lines,also by Grandmaster and Melly Mel,full blast in the van.Brilliant!By the way,how camp are those last 2 in the pic?they were meant to be hard edge U.S rapppers,telling it like it really was!



*thanks to fab blog http://80sactual.blogspot.com/2005/05/dont-push-me-cos-im-close-to-edge.html,which is where I found the lyrics.

** you'd have to be there I think!

what I'm doing right now

well probably the opposite to most people,I was working 13 hours last night so while most people were out celebrating NYE I was sober and surrounded by drunken people,most of whom were nice and some quite sweet,a few morons but not too bad all in all.Anyway I slept as long as I could today,until 1pm which is not bad for me and mooched around all afternoon,now I suddenly have properly woken up and have cooked pizza and garlic bread and I am drinking Brown Brothers Pinot Grigio and have 'pump up the volume' on which is reminding me of my clubbing days,playlist here for 90's fans;
show me love-Robin S
Everybody's free-Rozalia
Ride on Time-Black Box
Dreamer*-Livin Joy
I'm Gonna Get you-Bizzare Inc feat Angie Brown
Pump up the Jam-Technotronic
Naked in the Rain-Blue Pearl
Its a fine Day-Opus II
The Power-Snap
Love cant turn around-Farley Jackmaster Funk


bloody LOVE this music,it brings back memories of going out with my mates,getting drunk on wine mixed with coke (cos I didnt like wine but it was free)and then terrorising the men in clubs and pubs around London!


I also have the new Killers cd which I cant get into at the moment,but keeping fingers crossed I can as I love them and want to like it as much as Sam's Town and Hot Fuss.



*one of my all time fave songs!