Jimmy Choo for H&M

I love this bag (the bottom one),whats the betting everyone queues madly then buys anything they can get their hands on and sells it on Ebay for vast profit?!!

I'd love this book for Christmas........

I know that no-one would buy it for me as I never get bought books except cookery books,even then I have to ask for them,and I dont think anyone knows I like CG,but I have always liked him since I was a kid and used to watch old B+W Hollywood films on telly on Saturday mornings (I hasten to add they were old films even then!!! he was so suave and such a good actor and incredibly handsome.

I bought these too..

This lovely Artisans t-shirt from ASOS and a pair of new white Converse,both had 25% discount which was good.



and this Damien Hirst skull print

life goes on

Thats what I've learnt this past few weeks,you carry on and recall good memories.To take my mind off things I did what aways works-other than getting drunk and bought the following;
this sequin beret-you may recall I have bought a couple of these before,but this was a fiver from Primark and actually fits me!


this blouse which also came in black-its my failsafe dandy style and nicely skims all my fat bits and looks fab under the jacket I bought.£10

this little tux style jacket-looks so much nicer IRL and the shoulders puff up quite a bit which makes me feel very modern-last time I loved shoulder pads it was the 80's!

close up of the heart shaped buttons and lining!so cute!


the back detail,its slightly cropped so this nestles in the small of the back.


Being almost an Essex/East End girl,I also got myself this Juicy-a-like tracky in black and a pair of the joggers in grey.I have had some before but these are much better and have ribbons as ties which is sweet.


and these blusher balls to try but I think they may be too light for me-and I'm pale!


I also finally got hold of the TS skull tee I wanted but it looks horrible on me as its too long so its going back!

a sad but lovely send off

I went to the funeral last week,I got to work and was instantly a bag of nerves and tears when I saw my usually scruffy colleagues tunic-ed up with boots bulled and gloves on.I was spilling things everywhere cos I was nervous/upset-boot polish all over the floor,and I had to do my hair twice.
We arrived and met up with colleagues past and present,then we began the honour parade.I stared into the distance cos I knew if I looked at my friend opposite I start to cry,and I knew she was doing the same,then the bagpipes played and the bikes led the cars in as they started driving down between us and I made the 'mistake' of looking into the cars and seeing his wife and children,one of whom loooked right at me and that was it.Its hard to cry without screwing up your face and wailing,but I just about did it.We followed the coffin (with helmet ontop) into the church,and the service was lovely actually.A few anecdotes and the story of a life.Then outside and standing to attention again,the Last Post and it was over.
Me and the lads on my relief had to head back as we were straight back on duty,but we all had a little cry in the car-what other job would you be expected to do that?You never get chance to go with your emotions as you have to put your professional face on.I could have really done with a drink that day.

http://www.policememorial.org.uk/NationalRoll/2009/NPORH_2009.htm

why me?

Late,late,info this morning saying that due to a complaint (10 a penny in the police) means I cant transfer.I have already handed in my notice so at this moment I'm not even sure I have a job as from next week.Why me?I haven't done anything wrong but it doesnt matter in this line of business,its guilty 'till proven innocent,so even though it will NEVER go anywhere I lose everything..welcome to the modern day police service.

leaving drinks

I had mine this week-I havent actually left yet but due to shifts and other commitments,I had it early and I drank so much I drank myself sober.I've done that a few times and I don't know if you do actually get more sober or you just get used to being very drunk?Then I had a curry that I couldnt eat most of!Managed not to do anything embarrassing either for a change!!
I think some people are only believing I am really going now as it was in General Orders-I was quite surprised at how many people emailed me,etc to say 'good luck and keep intouch'-I didnt invite my old place of work,just a couple of people-I can do without all the dramas and gossip and man at work was most not welcome.